Well I used to be prescribed pain pills every 3 months, but that doesn't mean it was legal. I abused those drugs, but at the time I thought it was ok because a doctor gave them to me, so it was no big deal, ya know? WRONG. The moment I started abusing them and not taking them "as directed", is the moment it became illegal and wrong.

Denial and fooling other people is an addicts best traits. We can fool ourselves into believing we don't have a problem (Denial) and we can usually get away with fooling others, for so long...

A very wise man in NA once told me, "An addict can't lie to an addict." Meaning, no matter how much you try covering your tracks or how smooth you go about doing things in active addiction, other addicts more than likely know... Because we once did the same things, too.

Why are you here? Hmm, because you logged in, came to this forum of all forums, and posted about drugs you are/have taken. For the most part, this thread is revolved around drug addicts or recovering addicts/alcoholics. there's a 99.999% chance you knew this, and even if subcontiously, it was a cry for help. Maybe you've gotten scared and started the denial full fledged again, I don't know, only you do... But in your original first post, it had 'i want help' written all over it.