thank you fuzzybear, mlpHolmes & J. i appreciate your posts.

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J you asked:

What do you mean by that? Could you explain a bit more? I think they're proud of you, and love you for who you are, otherwise they wouldn't be celebrating your birthday with you, right?

my parents do love me. i know they love me. i am their daughter. but i've let them down. i'm obese, unhealthy, unmarried, no kids, unemployed, broke, and mental. there's nothing to be proud of.

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i just feel so awful right now. and scared. don't know what the next few months are going to bring.