It's not as if they weren't always there. It's not as if it's something new. It's just that I never knew. It's just that I am finding out. I feel like I am the last one to know. I am the brunt of a very bad joke. Everyone says they were put in place to protect me. It is a miracle because otherwise I would be dead. I feel like it is a very bad joke and I am the punchline. I am tired of being the punchline. I am tired of the joke. I want to be done. I am tired. Just tired.