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you need rest. is there a way that you can take a couple of days off of work and meet with t and rest for the rest of it? you've been very sick and now it's coming back, and for that i'm so sorry but that makes a hard situation seem impossible. when you feel better physically, it won't seem impossible, honey. please try to remember that, k? are you going to urgent care today for treatment? i think that's very necessary.

it sounds as if you're beginning to put denial aside and when you do, you can feel a number of thoughts and emotions. i can understand you're feeling as though you're the brunt of a joke. try to concentrate that they've been created by a very desperate child to survive. they were there to help and they still think they're helping in the ways that they know how...it's just not always appropriate anymore, ya know?

wantto, i know you. i know you're so tired. i also think you need to rest for a few days...to heal physically and to get some emotional rest. i also know that you CAN do this. you're not the brunt of a huge joke. you're more the person who's family has decided to take care of her and not tell her the things that they're going to do or their plans on how to do it...the intentions are good, but still one gets angry.

wantto, you are going to do just fine. i adore you and yours. you're a wonderful person and friend.

love,