Thanks Heather.

Yes, I have been going through counseling. I have an appt next week.

Unfortunately, he led me to believe he was only in an affair, and a lot of information came out the year during our separation that led me to believe the problems were deeper than that.

I'm glad the constant anxiety is gone that I had while we were still together. I never knew if he was telling the truth or lying to me again. He never once told me the truth through any of this it now seems like, and it keeps hittiing me like a ton of bricks. I now keep thinking my entire past with this man was a lie... it irritates the crap out of me.