Hi JayL -- Welcome to the forums.

Are you comfortable with yourself? IMO, that is the place to start to "fix" things. It may require working with a therapist, may lead to taking a med for anxiety.

For me, in addition to T & meds, prayer has helped, and getting involved with spiritual groups where people are less judgmental. And lastly, just plain old getting older has helped me to become more comfortable with myself and therefore, with others.

I understand your misery, however. I can look at family movies of myself as a kid and my public misery is so obvious, I wince.

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