Hello and welcome to Psych Central. I agree with Nightbird that you need to see an MD, and possibly get a physical and a referral to a therapist and on an antidepressant. Although a lot of depression is related to Post partum Depression, which has a way of creeping up on you unexpectedly and leaving you confused and feeling alone even though everything else is going okay. I wish I had the resources such as this when I had Post Partum when my son was small it would have helped tremendously. Depression is not failure it is a chemical imbalance and can be helped with therapy nd medication. Take care. (((Black Tears))). PM anytime. Soidhonia.