i want to eat properly.. i really do... but %#@&#! %#@&#! %#@&#!.... stupid hormonal cycle has me eating TOO much... happens every time. Salt foods. i'm like a frickin' cow needing a salt lick.

im all bloated and gross and oh god it's hard to not dwell on it.. hard to make myself think that it's just water.. so hard. i even did the unthinkable.. i threw up in the multi-stall bathroom at work.