Thanks Sunrise!

Definitely the "self-diagnosis" is short term until my psychiatrist appt on the 17th. We'll see what she says, but I'm pretty confident she'll agree. Other than some of the losing things and being physically hyperactive, I show virtually all the other symptoms and most pretty in depth.

But, there's always that chance that she'll disagree. Now that there's a glimmer of another answer out there other than constant depression anxiety/panic meds/therapy that might explain this, it's going to be a serious bummer if she doesn't think so.