well i cut my self 8 times last nite.. why cause some one vandlized my car. they put bread dough on my car and it got into everything.. it got into the windsheild wiper fluid sprayer clogging them and underneath the windsheild rubber holders and plus it took a hour to clean off.. WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS. WHAT is it enough that i quit eating school lunches so no one thinks im a pig, is it enough that i odnt talk speak or even go out of my way to get out of yours.. WHAT DID I DO? i hate my life right now.. im so pist i could just scream... Really i know im fat and still u cant leave me alone.. EVERYONE AT SCHOOL bullies me physically and mentally 8 hrs a day.. Cant they leave me alone for at least 6 hrs after school and on weekends is that too much to ask for? IS IT... If any of you think im over reacting then put bread dough on ur cars and let it bake for 3 hrs in the sun and scrap the crap off.. YOU BE PIST TOO.. I seriously want to drop out.. i know its my senior year and soon it will be over BUT WILL IT? I have been bullied for 11 years of my live bullied beatened and harrassed sexually and mentally for every ****en minnute of it... EVEN ON THE BUS 3 seats back i been kicked and does anyone do anything NO WAY. Is it so hard to resist making me feel like im the biggest loser of the year on the weekends too... I Hate my life i seriously do.. Why cause of people... Im freaken tired of this.. before i oculd handle it, now im not even strong enough to keep my head up when someone calls me four eyes..... or something so lame.. I cant keep fighting... Im sick of this world, im sick of this life i haft to lead... Im sick of it.. JUST SICK... AND NO ONE CARES IN MY SCHOOL NO ONE.. I cried when i took a english test cause i was so busy worring the nite before to even study. i dont even know how to study.. I dont.. Does the teacher ask why i was tearing up, NO does she ask why i kept drawing on my paper NO, does she even ask why i havent answered any questions NO. Does she even see the abuse i get IN HER CLASS ROOM NO. One day im going to walk into her class with my wrist slit and i bet she wouldnt even ask why. On the test she just said quit drawing and work on ur test.. I couldnt even pass a english test.. and everyone doesnt even care.... SO WE WILL VANDLIZE K**** CAR AND MAKE HER CRY, EXTRA BONUS IF SHE CUTS HER SELF, AND JACK POT IF SHE DIES. DO THEY WANT ME TO DIE? YES.. on the bus i ask the kid why he kept kicking me he said CAUSE I WANT U TO DIE.. i remember vividly in 2nd grade asking him that question.. DOES ANYONE CARE NO... SO really if i just cut my self in front the the whole student body and died everyone would just give a round of applause. CAUSE THE FAT KID DIED. im sorry bout this, im just sick of what i haft to live through.. i gave up dtrying to not cut.. i just cant anymore.. i just cant.. i give up on this life...