well, I have some bad news (or good news depending on how you look at it). I got all the tests done a few weeks ago and I went to a doctors visit a few days ago, and he said all the tests came back okay and nothing was wrong with me. It was a full blood scan or something, he checked for a lot of stuff. He understands what Im saying, but he did all the tests and everything was okay so he says he doesnt know what to do. He also thinks I might be depressed and I should try and get back on a anti-depressant....something I have been against for a while now.

I dont know what to do. I know that I have had minor depression and anxiety which could have led to the psychosis episodes I went through, but for the past 8 months I have felt it was caused by something physical. I cant live like I am anymore, but taking anti-depressants even made me worse before. It may have helped my depression just a little bit but the bad side effects far outweighed what it did. I am now almost 20 and I was on like 6 different anti-depressants from ages 14 to almost 17. I have tried everything...I just dont know what to do. I had at least a little hope left before but now I feel like my life is over. I dont mean to whine or sound pessimistic but I really do feel like my life is over... Any suggestions will be helpful.