I dont know why stuff like this happens to us....And Im talking about any bad form of mental illness that seriously messes up your life. I am the wrong person to talk to about this right now. I am not doing good right now at all. My psychosis has let up a bit the last month of two but I am still very delusional. It really scares me that sometimes I dont realize that I am not stable or rational at all and my thought pattern is way off, because I always thought I had it under control.

I just dont know...I hope you do good and everything is okay one day...but I know for a lot of people that day never comes. I dont know what causes this stuff, if anything even does. I am like you, I have been through some things that I know realize may have been harmful, but other people had it worse than me and they are doing fine right now, I know this for a fact. I really hope that you do better one day, there is always hope out there.