(I posted as Defective but changed my name back to Shaymus since this)So last week i sent them an email and as of yesterday night they both responded positively Yay! Thats the best possible outcome although now im nervous cause they want to meet up. Definitely worth fighting through though to get to see them but still scary. Anyway thanks for the encouragement and for helping me see things from their point of view. It was very helpful. I think even my own therapist was pleasantly shocked which is nice.