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chaotic13 wrote:
Are you adding this experience (boldly going after what you needed even if it means permitting yourself to sob) to your empowering thread?

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">Sure! I think anytime a risk is taken in therapy and it pays off, that is empowering!

Something else happened in therapy yesterday, a little thing, and it reminds me of the discussion over in MissCharlotte's "couch" thread. I had said in that thread that occasionally I have gone over to T's couch and sat next to him, if I have to show him something, like a document. It's easier when we sit side by side. But I'm always very careful to go back to my seat as soon as we are done, so he doesn't feel "invaded" by me. Well, yesterday, it was T who left his couch and came and sat right next to me, lol. He wanted to personally show me his appointment book and the scheduling goof from last week. After he showed me, he got right up and went back to his place. So now my space has been "invaded" too. I loved it, of course.

I also realized that part of what I said to T yesterday was just for him, not for my therapy at all. It felt really good to be able to give him this "gift." I often feel he gives me so much--but what do I give him? And now I know what I can do. I am very happy about that, it makes the relationship feel more mutualistic, and makes me feel good to know there is something I can do to show my gratitude. I guess maybe it was therapeutic for me after all.