I wish I could help you, but I do know how you feel when it comes to the marriage part......

I always say, that If I have to be lonely, I would rather be alone! My husband and I have no relationship any longer. We do not talk....I HATE NOT BEING ABLE TALK. We have nothing, NOTHING, in common any more

Sorry for the rant...... Anyway, do you have any friends or relatives close by to help with the kids?

Is you husband disabled due to a war injury? Maybe there is a support group you could join. Or a group that would involve you and your husband, that may offer free babysitting at the same time.

What about a story hour at the library, at least there you would see & hopefully talk to other mothers .

Maybe you could look for a mom's group that uses one another for babysitting/playgroup. When my kids were young, we had a group of mothers who would babysit for each other. We kept a log of hours each "member" used and redeemed by sitting for another mom. It was wonderful and we even got together socially as our children got older.

I will offer more suggestions as they come to me, meanwhile take care of yourself too!!! Even if it is a warm bubble bath and maybe a glass of wine at midnight, do something for you!