I'm sorry I didn't see this earlier.
(((((Silver)))))
You're not a failure for drinking; you're human. You are facing a really tough anniversary and have a lot going on in your life, so you turned to something that has brought you comfort in the past (though it definitely isn't the healthiest way to deal with things, I know from my own experience).
The worst thing you can do after breaking sobriety is beat yourself up over it. U=You'll just make yourself feel worse and worse. I know for me it just usually leads to me drinking again and much more ("Well, I broke my sobriety, so what's the point?"). Don't let yourself fall into that vicious circle. Take care of yourself and treat yourself with the love, attnetion, and affection you deserve.
I'm here with you in this tough time,
 
J
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"One by one, as they march, our comrades vanish from our sight, seized by the silent orders of omnipotent death. Very brief is the time in which we can help them, in which their happiness or misery is decided. Be it ours to shed sunshine on their path, to lighten their sorrows by the balm of sympathy, to give them the pure joy of a never-tiring affection, to stregthen failing courage, to instill faith in hours of despair."
-Bertrand Russell
With love and hope,
<~/J\~>
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