Don't feel like you're mean or cruel this is not only normal but human! Every human being has been jealous!! Even pets get jealous if one gets more attention! So don't feel bad!

Jealousy is a cause for depression many times!
Its very natural to feel jealous when someone else gets the attention you yourself have cried out for! Maybe these women don't know you well enough to see the signs? Maybe if you open up to one of them you feel closest to then you might get some support?

I'm sure they've not seen the signs or they'd be willing to help you! They sound like caring individuals.

I advise you to seek a doc you can talk to. If you don't feel comfortable with the one you are currently seeing then its time to go elsewhere.

Don't be so hard on yourself! Depression is a hard thing to deal with! I think you should open up to them! And maybe, who know, you may become best of friends

Good luck