I wanted to thank everyone for you kind comments. It's nice to know that someone is listening. I feel much better this morning, kids are still sleeping and I can hear my own thoughts again. I know I will be visiting this emotion again, but hopefully not in the near future.

I love my kids to death, I know this time with them will not last forever. I don't like feeling overwhelmed, I want to enjoy my time with them. I feel guilty for those feeling, some people can't have children or lost their children. I really should not be complaining and am sorry for doing so.

Thanks again for your support.