**** If you are new in therapy and struggling with trust issues, this is likely not a good thread for you to read.

I hope you all will help me a bit today. I want to know what your worst therapy experience could possibly be.

I have a therapy session this afternoon where I would like to directly and frankly discuss my irrational thoughts and fears regarding physical contact. I am trying to get myself ready to take the plunge and actually explain in detail some of the things that run through my mind and how overwhelming this fear actually is on the inside. I'm doing a worst case scenario analysis to prepare myself.

This morning I am trying to figure out why I continue to resist discussing this issue in detail with my T. I know I feel naïve, stupid, embarrassed, abnormal when talking about it. As the thoughts and words form, I realize how irrational and skewed they are and then I don't even want to admit that I had them. But of course by not expressing them, my T has no idea how f*&^ed up I am, so she can't help me deal with them.

Therapy is where it is OK to express and talk about any and all issues. No matter how pathological, disordered, just totally wacky the issue or thoughts are, your T is someone who has likely heard it all before. More importantly, not only have they heard it before, they are trained to see through the wackiness to help the real you put these thoughts to rest and correct the distortions.

Here are my questions for the group:
1) If you have a good therapist, why would you still resist and not take advantage of this opportunity to de-clutter your mind and bring order to the disorder????

2) If you were to say something that makes you appear like a total shameful, complete idiot, evil, hypochondriac, (add any other judgment labels) freak-- WHAT IS THE WORST THAT CAN HAPPEN? Be honest here... this is why I put the trigger icon on this thread. In a therapy session, what is the worst thing you can think of that can happen?