the reasons i still haven't said things to my t are that i am afraid to show her my bad, tarnished, dirty side. i want her to like me, accept me, maybe even love me in the parental self and or keep me forever. if i tell her those things, she'll reject me (that is my fear). also i'd then have to take 'me' home after exposing all that and sit with 'me' in the same house. she only has to deal with me an hour a week. i don't think i could handle having to have the exposed me longer.