today i found out that my grandma has breast cancer.
i have absolutely no idea what to do. i lost my grandad to lung cancer when i was two, and both my fathers parents died before i was born, so ive always been really close to her- as have my entire family. i dont see her as much as i used to because we moved away from wiltshire in the country to london (about a 2 hour journey) a couple of years ago... but this news just scares the living daylights outta me. i cant bear to lose her completely. and i feel like im all alone. i dont want to talk to my friends about this- im normally quite an open person and as far as they know im dealing with "family stuff"- but i just feel that its better they dont know. and whenever i try to talk to mum about it, she just gets upset. i just want someone to listen to me and help me through this. i dont know how to deal with it all.

L x