i should just be a big fatty and just never stop eating. Then i could just be constantly miserable all of the time and have a reason to be fat.

I Don't Understand.
Everything i do and everything i think is about my weight. and food. and burning calories.

AND IM STILL A DISGUSTING FAILURE.
no matter how little i eat, the scale doesnt change and i dont feel any better.

i think anorexicly and eat like a cow. how does that happen?!
I'm so over food. and so done with eating. i hate this stupid fat body im stuck in.