Hi all. Sorry I haven't posted in awhile. It's been a rough few weeks (i.e. had to get a new counselor, disability claim craziness, med craziness, etc., etc.) but I'm hanging in. I was seeing the new counselor today and I was really working hard telling her things I haven't delved into before. It was really, really rough. At the end of our session, she says to me, "You have a fear. A fear of rejection." My mind went, "Oh, ok." I was too busy trying to get myself together before I left the office that I didn't think about it. Then, when I got into my car, I realized that what she said just felt right. My mind went, "OH! THAT'S what that is." While I have no idea how I'm going to get over this fear, simply giving it a name is an amazingly freeing feeling. Does this make any sense to anyone at all? I can't believe I'm somewhat happy about this, but I am. It's kind of like I know what to attack and defeat now where as before I was just searching blindfolded in the dark hoping I grabbed onto something that felt right. I have no doubt that the next few weeks and months are going to continue to be hard, but I'm going to try and keep this lightness feeling going for at least another day.I don't know if any of you get this, but I thought if anyone did, I'd find them here.

Hang in there everyone.
JMB