So... have had severe anxiety... lately..

sitting there in waiting room.. minding my own business reading a magazine... and.... out comes.. this T.. with booming voice.. and went up to person sitting kitty corner to me..

and... I reacted... scared me so bad.. jumped up.. the magazine flew.. and I screamed...

sure.. didn't mean to.... anxiety!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so.... an alter made a joke.. to lighten.. the waiting room.. people's tension..

and.. this lady said "to each their own".. and looked down her "snooty" nose at me...

judged.. tried.. and convicted.. at a outpatient.. mental health.. clinic..

all.. I can do.. is laugh... or I would cry....

scared the crap.. out of the T.... because.. we were physcially so close... when....the magazine went flying..didn't hit anyone.. just flew straight up in the air....

pure reaction............. absolutely.. no thought on my part..

couldn't help it... HONESTLY... couldn't...

so... just trying not to cry.. I guess...