Thank you for your responses, everyone; it really means a lot to me.

(((((hugs)))))

I did a bit better today: went on a walk, sent in my regstration form for the GRE, and finished a book I've been reading for preparation for my thesis, and got a couple more ideas. I've got a general idea of where I want to go; now I just have to find the particular path and see how feasible it is to follow.

I seem to do a lot better on days when I have some semblance of a routine. I usually try to wake up, eat a light breakfast, take a long walk, and then shower. By then, I usually feel energized enough to tackle something.

I just don't know where to turn for help anymore. I won't be seeing my T until late August since she's on my college campus, and even if I were to go back for a little while, I'd have to pay to get seen (which I don't have to do during the school year), and I can't afford that. That's why I came to PC in the first pace: I didn't know where else to turn. I don't what I'd do without all of you! (((hugs))) I think it would do me good to stay with a friend from college for a week or two and do some work that way. I just don't have the means of getting up there or sustaining myself if I do manage to find a way up there.

I think for now I'm just gonna have to take things one day at a time, and if that's too much, one hour at a time. I'm always so worried about the future.

We'll see what happens. I'm just gonna take things as slowly as I need to for a little while.

Thanks for replying everyone! I really appreciate it!



J