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foreverlost said:
You're an evil, stupid, crazy, ugly, lazy, worthless, unloveable ***** and nothing will ever change that"!

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I've called myself these things quite frequently, especially a cold-hearted unlovable *****.

As for the trust thing, for me it comes and goes. I don't trust, then totally wear myself out resisting, avoid, worrying, etc... Then when I am exhausted I say F*&^ it, I don't care what happens and then take the plunge. Maybe one day I will stop wasting all that time and energy and just trust people I know to be trustworthy.