(((((((( christina86 & rose3 )))))))))))))

thank you for the kind words of support! i hope things go smoothly tomorrow. and you are right another committment would NOT be a good thing!! i don't think it will happen - i'm just stressing.

i did email my best friends (a married couple). even though they are going through tough times themselves. i felt bad about doing it. but if i didn't they'd be upset if they found out i was upset and didn't tell them. so i feel a little calmer. i feel like a burden. but a calmer burden! :ugh:

i just hope i can go without cutting tonight. because there's this self sabotage thing going on where i know i'll cut where it can be seen by the doctor. then have to explain my way out of it. stupid huh! anything to add to my own misery! geez

thanks again for reading and posting. i appreciate your support!!!!!!!