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dalila · Jul 03, 2008, 03:54 AM

<font color="green">Last week I got a call from my T’s office that a ‘crisis’ had come up and she couldn’t see both of us this week. [Dd and I have back to back appointments] although I was not happy about it I agreed to give up one of our two hours. I hate when this happens. She always lets us decide if the time left will be mine or dd’s or if we want to share it. Yuk.

Anyway as usual I soon was building this mole hill into a mountain. T doesn’t like us – what kind of crisis do you know about a week in advance? And so on. Then I thought about the last time something happened and I turned it into a mountain, so I started over again.

T is not captious; she would not ask to cancel an appointment without a good reason. When I need her - she has gone out of her way to be there for me, just thinking of some of those times made me want to cry, cos I could see how much she does care and was just overwhelmed with how much I care about her.

Still I kept coming back to what kind of a crisis do you know about a week in advance??? I decided to consider it again and I actually came up with several things it could have been. Someone in the office was sick or needed surgery or had a relative who was sick or needed surgery or had died suddenly and so things had to be changed.

I was so proud of myself – for once I faced my fears and didn’t allow them to overwhelm me. I used my brains and worked it out.

In fact I was so proud of me I made a point of telling it all to T on Tuesday. She was proud of me too and cheered and clapped for me. She talked about how this was a huge jump for me. I worked it out without letting my abandonment fears cripple me. I didn’t stay stuck in a downward spiral but actually worked it out and triumphed. Maybe I am going to heal.
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