A child is never to blame for sexual abuse, no matterwhat your pepatrator tells you ..... he was an adult, should have known better NEVER to take advantage of a child ... a child has no power over an adult when it comes to this behaviour .... YOU WERE NEVER TO BLAME IT WAS NEVER YOUR FAULT. Please start by believing me ok? You know from your adult place that the child was not to blame. You need a good therapist (rape crisis where I go)it's donation only and there should be one close to where you live ........ you need to know that all the hurt you are carrying is causing anger, rage, all those feelings have to come out ..... talking, journaling, opeing up will help you sweetie, please get yourself proffessional help too .... you can talk to me anytime about this ...... know i care and i love you, i understand and so do many others here ..... (((((((((((Roz))))))

you are entitled to be angry, frustrated and hurt , i am so pleased you are getting these feelings out, just always put a trigger icon, here to support you ok? love,Jin xoxoxoxoxo