Yuck on icky bugs! I'm sorry that happened Kiya. You are very brave though. I hope you were able to get through last night without self harming. It will pass is so true. Oftentimes I have to just cling to those words even when it doesn't feel like it's true at the time. But if we just hang on tight, it does pass.
Take good care Kiya and thanks for updating us. We care.