I hear you........ i sit here and think ok not going to eat much if anything today and then i end up sitting here binging on what ever i get my hands on. Then comes the purging and the cycle starts all over again. I also tell myself im going to start up my exercising again ( i was once an overexercising bulimic and lost 40lbs). I tell everyone I did it healthily but truthfully i was exercising more then ni should have been and still purging in the bathroom as well. Someday I just wish this never ending cycle would end.