I haven't SI'ed now for a month. Now that's not some wonderful achievement for me or anything since I don't SI that regularly anyway... but over the weekend and today I've had stronger urges than in the past couple of weeks. I'm at university and my dad came to visit me and it caused me quite a bit of stress, and the urge is still there today, even stronger than yesterday, and he's not even here now....

it's hard to see the point of resisting. kind of screwed logic, but if I've gone a month, it doesn't matter if i do it again. maybe i won't do it anyway... often when i've had urges to SI, i just havent had the energy to do anything. idk.