I mentioned my SI to my fella last night... well, all I said was 'oh there was this woman who came into work.... I can't believe there are so many people out there with problems with it and we barely notice...'

and he FLIPPED.

He dropped me off and left me crying in the street. I know it upsets him, but I havent hardly spoke about it before and Im only quitting because it hurts him when i do it, Ive been doing so good and Id at least like a bit of praise off him at least. Im trying so hard, and whats it worth when he doesnt even notice.

He really upset me, he made me feel like he just doesnt care what Im doing for him, shouting at me and making me feel embarrsed and ashamed that I have a problem with it. It makes you realised you are really alone in this...

He's apologised and stuff. But I still dont think that he realises how hard it is, and how important it is for me to have someone to talk to, and not be out to shame when I let my innermost feelings out and when I share my secrets. I felt that dirty last night that I really really badly needed to do it.

I know its just because it upsets him though. I know he didnt mean to upset me even more. But I just wish I mad someone to talk to about it properly without people blaming me or shouting at me or freaking out