Hi,
I am new here so be patient with me please. I have a question but I need to give some background first.

When I was in my teens I started to drink and party. This went on for several years. I had the lost week-ends, black outs, etc. If I couldn't drink wherever, I wouldn't go. 18 years ago I was able to lay it down. Then about 5 years ago I go hooked on oxycontin. Ended up in detox. This is when I learned about being an addict. I'm not the brightest light bulb in the box sometimes.

I never drank for fear that I would go back to the way I was. But if I could get my hands on some vicodin, I would do it. I take Adderall and from time to time abuse it.

Recently I had a beer. Tasted good, had another but didn't finish the second one. Later, had some vicodin but it didn't make me feel better like it usually does. Can anyone tell me what is going on? It's like I can't get those old familiar feelings but I keep looking for them???