Hi Miss Charlotte,

Your T sounds pretty decent. I've learned that having a good T is a rare thing. I've been lucky in that I have a good T. They are usually very educated about psychiatric meds (much to PDOC's competitive dismay I'm sure)and I always feel comfortable discussing my meds with my T.
From what I understand with my limited knowledge of self harm, when people engage in cutting or otherwise hurting themselves, it's almost always an impulsive act with very little thought into the consequences. The overwhelming part of the negative feelings that make you feel like you want to cut or otherwise hurt yourself will almost always pass rather quickly if you don't give in to the impulsive urge immediately. I was told by a psychiatric nurse that I used to work with that the reason why the feeling will pass rather quickly if you don't give into it, is because people are not capable of holding onto such strong feelings for anything other than a short period of time. Sure, the feelings may cycle back later on, but the trick is to distract yourself with something else just long enough to let the impulsive feeling to self harm pass.
I think the way it might be like drinking is that both are negative, addicting behaviors that are really harmful, but used in an attempt to find short-term relief. So does meditation work for you? With the anxiety problems I have, I found that exercise and yoga are more effective for me (in that they distract me from the anxiety, and also re-focus my mind), but then I also have ADHD and it's hard for me to sit still long enough to meditate