The negative transference the past couple of weeks has been, well, lets say, %#@&#! awful!!

Today we were talking about it, talking about lots of things, and I was talking about how I always feel I'm going to sabotage, get real angry and then T will "sack" me and T happened to say, is that why you do "that" in your online forums? and I'm telling her about a certain recovery forum I've used for yrs and how everyone always seems so over grateful and happy happy with each other and I just don't get that 24/7 gratitude thing and T suddenly blurts out "They must be on something" with that she put her hand to her mouth and looked a bit red and started laughing and about to say "sorry" and I looked at her in shock laughing and it was the first time I've seen her in that light, that slip of the tongue kind of thing and in that moment I felt reconnected again with her!! at last someone sees life like I do LOL!!