I saw this post and HAD to answer. as somebody who IS bipolar and DOES mentally and physically abuse my husband, i need to say this. We all wish to be normal. when an episode arises, at least with me, i know in my mind that what im doing is wrong but i cant stop the behavior. its out of control and it gets worse and worse until ive broken him down and were both spent. Maybe its me controlling him by breaking him down. I know that when I feel good i am GREAT! To answer your question, I am a loving caring pretty and understanding individual who was dealt a %#@&#! card that I have to shuffle on a daily basis. the meds.....hmmm,,,,,well the best way to describe it is walking in the dark for a looong time and somebody just turns the lights on. (we all want the lights on) but when they get turned off, its hard to find the switch. make sense?

It a chemical imbalance. we all WANT to be loving. we all have it in us to be loving. we do not enjoy misery. What we need are loving partners who take the time to listen, and learn about our illness and help us through the difficult times. I have never cheated but I have impulse spending issues which i am trying to curb, along with a bad attitude towards my wonderful supportive husband. Sorry for the rambling i hope it helps.

The real me.....is chemically imbalanced who wants to be happy but has no choice in some circumstances on how i behave. after which i ususally feel crappy. I WANT TO BE HAPPY and on those good days, that is me. On bad days i dont think thats me. I want to be happy.

Hope this helps....if not sorry! Im bipolar AND add and sometimes ramble.

take care and welcome to PC

Colleen