Over the past 4 months my room mate and I have spent a lot of time together. For the past couple of months he has taken me out to eat lunches and dinners and we always had a great time. Weekends we always barbecue, play darts, swim, etc. Last weekend it became more intimate then eating together. Then he got a call that his ex (who he was still close with) died. She was in the hospital very ill for about 2 weeks. It was very sad. When this happen he basically shut down what we started and asked me to wait until the funeral was over because he was having a hard time dealing with it. I understood that and still do. And I think that is patient of me, something I am usually not. I really did not want a boyfriend because it seems I am always the one with my heart dangling! But I really like him. The funeral is Monday. I am not planning on pouncing immediately to find out what is going on between he and I. I am really hoping he will bring up the subject like he said he would. But the way things go for me I am thinking he will not. I hope that is just insecurity speaking! I am also thinking that if he did not want to continue a relationship with me he could have just said that instead of making me wait to hear it. He has said all along he wants a woman in his life, whether it is me or not remains to be seen for sure. I guess I am writing this to get it all off my chest since I dont really have anyone else to talk to about it, but also I always appreciate the advise or comments I get here.
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People are like stained glass windows They sparkle and shine in the sun but when
darkness hits their true beauty is
revealed only when there is light within . Elizabeth Krubel-Ros
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