thanks sunrise, i am really trying to. MD wants to help so much and it scares me so much!!
You know how we all take things and then run them through our messed up filters?? Well, MD was saying what worked for other ppl and how i could try these things - which would mean my going away and working like 5 hours from here. So that to me translated as "she wants me to go away! She's trying to get rid of me!!!"
I *know* that is not true, but it FEELS true. you know??? I'm afrad of what she's going to come up with - if i have to turn down the ideas! Then I'll seem ungrateful or worse.
*breathing*