yep this is how I feel being alone on the holidays I try to get friends but at my age and people hurts you so when you trust them it,s safe for me being alone but sad being alone I try to take some changes making friends but people are just as scare as me to get to know new people or add them in your life. today I can use some email friends. anixity is trying to be my friends but am not trsuting anixity, and I know panic is need by. so I went where even if you do not get emails. you reply to other who need help.