Hello, I am feeling very sad today. I lost my sister a little bit ago and am having a hard time adjusting. My sister played a large role in my life and now she is gone. I feel like I don't know who to talk to especially since I haven't been talking about it. I wish I felt better. I spent all day alone today eating and watching movies because I didnt want to inteact with anyone. I knew I felt lonely and that this was not productive but I just didn't want to have to go out and pretend to be happy, doing high energy stuff. Ever since she left (physically...she is still alive) I feel really down and lonely. I feel like I am really unhealthy right now but I miss her so much and feel like no one could be to me as good a friend and that no one can understand me like she did. I miss spending time doing nothing and eating junk food and calling and telling her about stupid stuff that I was thinking about. Now she is too busy and I feel more alone than ever. I feel like I want things to go back to normal bu they don't. And I know that my other friendships haven't really changed that much but I feel like they have. I feel more sensitive to people not calling back because I feel like I need people to be more present right now than normal. Has anyone else ever felt this way? I'm not a really needy person, I just need more support now than I have in the past.

I also hope that someday I will feel better and will feel what I know to be true--that many people love me and want to spend time with me.