I've spent most of my 30's going in and out of depressive episodes. Mercifully I'm not in one now. I've done a lot of work in therapy too, but with me I feel I owe a great deal of my recovery to meds.

My pdoc has said that with every episode of depression your liklihood of experiencing another episode is increased (I forget the exact statistical percentages) which is why she believes and I've accepted that psych meds are probably going to be a long term part of my life. Or as she said "the dose that get's you there keeps you there". I'd strongly encourage you to find a psychiatrist you can feel comfortable with who can work on finding the right meds combination for you.

I can really relate to the apathy that depression brings and how it feels like you're never going to get out of it. But it doesn't have to be that way. Depression is a treatable illness that can be managed. Hang on to that belief.

Take care.

--splitimage