I know that I shouldn't but I just kept clinging to her. I wanted so badly for it to work, more than even staying healthy. I couldn't be a boy for her so her family would always give her a hard time about me but I figured I could be pretty and thin for her, so she could at least have a girlfriend that she wanted. I guess I just wante dto be her trophy girlfriend even if it hurt me, because I knew that either way, she would still be looking at me. She would still be proud to be with me.