my darlin...you aren't one night stand material...that's all...move on...and consider it a lesson learned..we can't judge character from one night in the bar...(though it would be much easier if we could ha)...my wish for you is to recognize your own value..your own "preciousness" even without a romantic partner..you're obviously an extraordinary person...once you get that into your consciousness...you'll be more forgiving...for gods sake.quit beating yourself up...your only a human...ccl..please love YOU...LOVE GRACE