I am not in therapy now. Would like to be but don't know how to find someone I can trust. I don't have many friends so that isn't a resource for referral. Also live in a small town about 45 min. from big city. But I am searching.

Yes, I want to quit the self medicating but it is so scary. I have been so close to what I call the "black whole" (suicidal thoughts) that I am terrified of going there again. I will check out the website you recommended. Thank you.

Did I mention that I can't spell? Now ya'all know my other secret =).