yeah, that is great :-)

i've been reading a bit... after my t talked about object relations... and i read some stuff about splitting (idealizing / devaluing) and about projective identification and the depressive position etc... and there was some stuff about idealizing being a defense against anxiety that the person might hurt, damage, kill, or pollute the 'good' object. that the rage gets split off and the 'good' object needs to remain 'all good'. feelings of anger / rage are hard. i feel so horrible after feeling those things towards my therapist. worry that i've hurt him or something. i guess it is progress when we can express some of the hurt and anger... but integrating that back into a more moderate position is hard. not sure what i'm saying really. just trying to convey some kind of understanding about the 'horrid' feelings, i guess.