You know, some people laugh when they find out that the first thing I do on a Sunday morning (knowing that I am not going out for the entire day) is take a shower and put on a full face of makeup, then fix my hair. I do this because it places me at a point that is very far away from what I would call "becoming my mother." Aside from doing things that "prove" that I am not like her, I am working on genuinely understanding that we are two different people and I when I DO see simliarties between us, realizing that I handle them a lot differently than she would. You must really connect with your MD. You are really lucky to have her. I think that if and when you tell your T, she will look at you as YOU-- not like a roach, not like your mother, not like anyone but you. You are Kiya-- not your house, not your mother, not the dirt on the floor. Just you.