i ASKED for help. my mother and my girlfriend.
my mom said no. she cant afford it and i dont have health insurance

No One is going to take my cry for help seriously unless im emaciated and passed out on the floor with my wrists bleeding aparently.

so i guess instead of asking, or even demanding help, ill do just that. become emaciated so SOMEONE will listen and give me the help im begging for.

if i have to live like this, i dont want to be alive.
i feel like giving up and giving in. its just not worth the fight anymore.