(((((((((((((((((((((( ww )))))))))))))))))))))))) thank you! i have no one to go with. brother said he "might" go to help ME with the baby, or he might watch him at home...he doesn't know. he can't drive anyhow, but it would help keeping me present. i may "push" the issue with him. ty.

he couldn't go in the room tho. if i take a stuffie or something comforting, i'm afraid the children will come closer, so i hesitate doing that i think that it's going to be majorly triggering with me being in the position that i'll be in and then feeling pain that's why i journaled about the visit. now, there are those scared. kinda damned if i do, damned if i don't thing. ugh.

i could ask dr to stand up maybe? you think dr would let me if i explain PTSD?