Hmm.. this keeps playing over in my head.. over and over again.

When I saw T this past week, as we were talking I reached up and put my hair over the back of the chair (I do this.. I was warm and feeling frustrated). Ok.. the session goes on and he stops me and asks that I pull my hair back again. I do it reluctantly (I like hair all around my face). He comments that I would look better with a short haircut !!! I said "what's wrong with long hair"! Of course he said "nothing" but shorter hair would look better.

Um.. me and my hair.. we're very attached. Without my hair, I wouldn't have a personality at all! Ok, so it's not the best hair... I know I look horrible, but hey, I'd look like a man without this hair!

I've never had someone suggest something so personal... and even if they had I must have taken it with a grain of salt.. blown it off, but how can ya blow off the T! He's "in your face" right there.. looking at ya... basically telling me my hair is horrible! EGADS!

OH man, my self esteem is in the GUTTER as it is. Now I'm kind of feeling funny about going back with the same big, fluffy, curly long hair. I'm also feeling funny about tying it up in a pony tail because I kind of want to REBEL deliberately (this is childish.. I know).

Dumb.................. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr